This basically sums up my feelings for you right now.

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This is not my story. I happen to found one by my favorite writer who expresses how I am feeling right now into words.

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Mood; Tired
Listening; Audience of One - Big Daddy Weave
Eating/Drinking; Vietnamese jelly treat (?)/Water
Currently; Figuring out this whole college experience...
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This whole new experience hasn't hit me yet. I'm actually in college now. It's quite weird. Throughout my freshman and sophomore year in high school, I've always thought that I would stay at home, go to classes, and come back home as if it was high school all over again. But it isn't like that at all. The moment I stepped into the Simmons campus with all of my stuff I finally realized that I'm actually taking a step forward instead of backwards. I'm finally gonna learn how to be an adult, an independent and responsible woman who takes on her tasks efficiently and wisely. But it's weird... I like this idea of independence but at the same time I feel...homesick? I know, it's only been the first day but already I'm homesick. I really do miss everything before I started growing up...

I miss going to Teens, I miss hanging out with my wifey Venus every so often, I miss taking the T from Braintree all the way down to Downtown Crossing, I miss biking around randomly, I miss arguing with my brother & sister, and I especially miss him... It's only the first day and I'm dealing with issues like this. I guess it's that feeling of change I don't like very much. I enjoy the fact that I can show the whole world that I can be responsible and independent but at the same time I don't like how this changes many things in my life. But I'm gonna have to get used to it eventually. :/ Okies gonna go...do random stuff because it's almost midnight. Probably get some sleep. Nighty night minna-san !

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Mood; Lonely...
Listening; Dirty Little Secret - All-American Rejects
Eating/Drinking; Nothing/Orange Juice
Currently; Doing homework I didn't do last night >_>;;;
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Okay here I am, sitting at my desk waiting for school to start (apparently I have two hour delay after I walked to my bus stop =_=;;; ). I should be doing my current events for my Sociology class BUT I have other things in my mind that is just preoccupying too much space for me to think. Oh by the way I'm not with him anymore. I broke it with him because honestly, I wasn't feeling mutual emotions in return and I always thought he was the one but I was only dreaming in my head. I told him that I do not feel the love toward him anymore. But now I don't know what to think anymore. I've been having conflicting emotions in my heart and I'm getting tired of always thinking about him when he told me basically to find some real friends. It already looks like he has moved on since he already has another "best girl friend" to talk to...so why am I still looking behind me? I still feel this angst-y lonely stab in my chest....

*sigh* Anyway... I got into another college. That makes two acceptances I have received. I'm still waiting on three more and I STILL need to fill out my FAFSA forms... =_=;;; I swear those things are starting to tire me... I still need help in filling those out along with filling out scholarship stuff. TOO MUCH THINGS TO DO!!! >o< *sigh* ...I need to change the layout. Lunar New Year just past (by the way, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!) and I want something new. >_< Just need some kind of inspiration... I'll probably ask Ryuna! xD LMAO.

Okay back to my current events. >_< Ja ne minna-san! (Ryuna~ I'm gonna stalk you online. :3 )

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